Disclaimer:
This site is a creation of the mind of Fluffy. Now my aim and intention has never been to appease other's sentimentalism, thus I often tend not to tiptoe around people's feelings. The world to me is not an interest group, nor a bias of majority versus minority; rather, it is a place filled with innumerable unique human beings. Despite all our differences, I hope to achieve with this site something to help show that there never was a box to think outside of.
And, as a side note, to all out there who have a semlance of a sense of
humor, I am overly curious as to whether or not God has an understanding of sarcasm. I mean seriously, sure
I have cried out to the heavens, "Oh! Please God don't let me be normal!" many times,
but couldn't God have realized,
I WAS ONLY KIDDING!!!!
Informative Blurb:
My focus over the past few years has become somewhat bitter, and overly cynical, which I'm sure many of my friends have noticed. The games we play with each other, for the most part without even thinking, are games that are point in fact rather disabling.
I have this T-Shirt that says, "I live in my own little world, but it's okay...they know me here." Well, my world contains my computer geekdom, from hardware, to software, to gaming, and evntually just overall usage. Yet my world also contains truth, and beauty, and all else that is intangible.
The Way of the Leaf is something that has evolved over a decade now, to a point that I feel has gone beyond what my initial intentions were. I focused on faith, acceptance, and individual spirit, yet something has gotten lost in the message. Maybe not online here, as you only have to read this, and not deal with me personally. But as half of me, the Sean half, grew in practice of my ideals, the Fluffy half has found too many ways to dominate my sensibilities.
As my official apology to the world for being the way I am, I do not intend to react so abrasively at times. Everyone has their rituals, their ceremonies, of which I have very few. Christianity and Judaism have sacrements, Buddhism and Taoism have meditation, but there was only one thing in my daily life, that for me filled the same hole: exploring our individual beliefs. So what happens? Well, people say something, mention an opinion, that somehow sparks my curiosity as to their perspective on the world, and I pursue it, not trying (or feeling) to be arguementative, but wondrously intrigued. However, my intrigue is not formatted as some blown sunshine up someone's ass like I have to agree with them just because I thought they had an interesting view. Thus, things usually end up in a debate, one which some of the time goes okay, but many more times than not people sort of get pissed off at me. Like for some reason my over obsessed focus upon the depth of reality is too constant or overbearing. When the truth, is that philosphical and theological discussion are my sacrement, that is how I see the spiritually supreme in all things, by rediscovering it each and every time someone disagrees with me on a matter of faith, fully willing and able to concede there never was any empirical PROOF. Their very disagreement shows me that not only could I be wrong, but how beautiful the whole thing is where two people can come together enjoying each other's company while completely disagreeing on a fundemental aspect of sentient existence.
In the end, to all I have ever argued with, and debated the existensial meanings of the universe, to this I say: I hope you take it as a compliment that I wanted to break bread in my fashion with you, and take the respect I offer in the fact that I found you worthy enough to actually play the devil's advocate. (If I placate or patronize you, that is when you should worry.)
Well, this site has seen its fair share of slow metamorphosis over the years since its conception back in the early days of this millenium. I now have found it necessary to update the arangement far beyond the usual additional content. I will also add this little section here of optimal viewing requirements:
Well, I've updated the site, by removing a few things that were...shall we say, misleading, as well as toasting my attempt at a guestbook. If anyone ever went in there, I'm sure you noticed the Spam-Heaven. As it was for a class to have a "Guestbook" on our mock site, I put it in there for the final project. But as I later found out assholes in the universe decided to take advantage of the its simplicity and spam it with countless porn and other drug websites taking up massive space on my domain server. So until I have a better design, it's gone.
I added a politics section, as I am beginning to feel that this wasn't a complete "Mind Dump" unless I included my political quirks along with my other ones. There is a rather humorous definition on that page along with my quirky sensibilities, so check it out.
Okay, now that I have completed this minor task, I have finally gotten my writing section up to date. And I mean UP TO DATE. I've redone how the section works, hoping to alleviate my future pains in updating the site, though the wonderful world of Active Server Pages. Yes, I took the time to develop my own method of displaying my database of information much smoother and uniform with the ease of a simple text file edit to update. Before I was manually coding a LOT of HTML and that just sucks. Now, I don't need to do that, so as I have completed this stage, I am looking forward to updating the rest of the site to work in a similar fashion.
Oh dear Lord have I worked on this. My writing section has gotten a massive boost in production, so I finally was able to put all my poetry up there. I reorganized it too, however the outline menu system is not as I would have liked to have it yet...but I will soon.
Okay, since I began in the HTML class for my "schooling" I have learned a few things that will increase my managability of this site. Naturally, the first and biggest deal happens to be my styles. However, there may be a little content update as well.
As I think you can guess, it has been a VERY long time since I looked into this thingy,
and realizing that I am far behind the dates.
For the moment I will be updating the entire site to some degree, adding more information, as well as more material. Mostly in the Computers, Writing, and Fluffy-ism sections.
Well, I think I'm doing a universal update across the board, so look around, I'll try to list everything I've added, but being imperfect I may miss a few. (Oops I forgot to actually do something)
I've made some updates to the Fluffy-ism section. Adding mostly a bunch of reading, but continuing my map of the Way of the Leaf to the internet world. Recognition that this is an ever-evolving delusion from my psychosis is becoming more apparent.
Sincerely,
The Webmaster, Fluffy
